What’s been going on?
We’ve all heard it many times. We’ve all said it many times. It’s that phrase, usually used in a greeting that people don’t usually want the answer to – or not a full, truthful answer. Can you guess what that phrase is? ”How’s it going?” or “How are you doing?”
When people ask me how I’m doing, I really do think about what they’re asking and wonder if they’d sit and listen for a full explanation, likely taking an hour of their time. I’m sure some people really do care how I am (or we are) doing. Sometimes, I consider telling them how things are, but then realize that putting my troubles on them would probably be the low point of their day and not make me feel any better. Since Jessica and Erika have been gone I’ve been more moody (usually on the down side) and could give someone a real earful of complaints and sorrow. So, I usually just tell them that things are going pretty good, or just say OK.
If you’re reading this and wonder what I’m talking about – Jessica and Erika being gone… I’ve “unpublished” a number of blog entries about that whole unbelievable chain of events. I’ve been told that what I wrote put blame on people and made me sound angry towards them. I disagree with that, but I suppose it’s because I know the feelings behind what I wrote. I thought that just “unpublishing” them for now would be a good solution. I haven’t changed any of the words, nor will I. It’s all there behind the scenes of the website, just as it is in real life. I’m going to do my best to move on, especially since I just learned that Jessica and Erika have been officially adopted by a family in a different state. For me, moving on may not mean much, and will probably look different every day. I will never be the same person I was before. Part of my family is gone forever.
