Adoption Day -81
Things are lumbering along slowly. I still miss my daughters more than I can explain. The scary part is that I’m starting to get used to Jessica and Erika not being around. Even though I accept that they’re not going to come back to us, I feel bad/guilty knowing that someday I may be OK with it. I don’t want to be OK with them being gone. I don’t want to get over them being gone – that makes it seem like I’m betraying or giving up on them. Yet, I know that I need to keep what is left of our family intact and through this mess. It’s hard having to be in contact with those people (me included) that I believed contributed to Jessica and Erika to be taken away.
Meanwhile, I try to stay as busy as I can to avoid thinking about them most of the day. I just finished a delay effect for my guitar. I made what is called a Rebote 2.5 delay. You know those things guitar players stomp on with their foot – that makes their guitar sound different? That’s what it is. When you hit a string on the guitar, this box makes it repeat at different rates and amounts, depending on where you set the knobs. Don’t laugh at my lack of guitar playing ability, but here’s a sample of what the box does:
OGG version of the delay audio
MP3 version of the delay audio
I’ve started on another effect, called the Bluesbreaker. I may build a couple more after that. It’s really fun building these things. You get to use acid, hand tools, solder and be a little creative at the same time. I’ll get a picture of the box and put it up. It’s a do-it-yourself job, for sure. I used an electrical ceiling box to put the board and other junk in. It looks kinda cool.
We went snowboarding on Monday. Both Holly and Mitch took some spills and have sore rear ends. I was a little more careful (age?) and stood upright most of the day. We all noticed that our wax jobs on the boards made us really fast….or was it the ice crystals we were on that made us fly down the hill at uncontrollable speeds? We all had new-used boards this time and I think they all were OK. We did give them a wax before we went out. I wish Jessica and Erika would have been there with us…
